Lost happiness can never be found

It's been a week since we chat..really don't wish to lose contact with you & see us difting apart from each other because this feeling is getting me out of no where ..though the time we spend together is not long but i guess we have shared some happy memories..can we have a chat?..miss the times when we joke around and talk about childcare & many things..虽然你这样对我但我从来没有怪你。。可是这样的对待对我很难受，不知道可以和谁说。。does our relationship mean nothing to you?..hoped that you are doing well with the one you are interested with..take care ...

Current Mood: stressed

It's been days since i heard from you..hoped that you're doing well..enjoy the coming weekends..i miss chatting with you..i don't know why this time round the relationship between us seems to get worst..can we don't lose contact with each other?..i may not be important to you but you already have a place in my heart..it is hurtful when someone you care for treats you like a nobody..can you spare a thought about how i feel?..until now i still try to put in effort to salvage the relationship..i still remembered you mentioned before that we can be good friends & contact each other ..

Current Mood: blank

It's been two days since i heard from you..want to text you today and ask whether you are feeling better but i'm afraid that i might disturb you..hoped that you have recover..i'm worry about your health..have been dreaming about you these two days..dreamt that we went to fly kite but after that you left..it's been almost two months since we meet up..sometimes i wonder, are we going to remain this way?..i wish that we can meet up once in a while..perhaps you would rather meet up with others ...

Current Mood: disappointed

Wondering how is your life doing..hoped that you have enjoyed the weekends & had fun..miss having you around..就是因为我失去了，才更珍惜目前现在眼前的人或事物。。或许你会觉得我傻，但我觉得只要你开心，这一切都值得。。我只希望你能了解我的心情，当我们只间突然很少联络，也没聊天，开玩笑，我的心里不好受。。很想和你聊一聊。。

Current Mood: restless

一天没有听到你的消息。。不知道你今天过得怎样。。quite worry for you after hearing that you are falling sick..hoped that you feel better today..eat & rest well always..wish that i can be by your side to take care of you when you are feeling unwell..i miss you even more when we never contact each other..the feeling is unbearable..there are many things that i want to tell you recently but i guess i don't have the chance to say it..i remembered you told me before that you will update with me about your life..it's been almost a week since we have a chat..you are always on my mind ...

Current Mood: lethargic

Prayed in the morning that you will do well for the test..hoped that you have done well..never heard from you for the day..i really don't wish to lose contact with you..you have become part of my life..though we can't be together but i hoped that we can at least be friends..can you spare a thought about how i feel?..i don't wish to see us in this state when we lose contact with each other..wondering how have you been, what you're doing ...

Current Mood: sad

As days passed we chat lesser each day..i have been telling myself not to disturb your life but i just can't help but text you because i am concern for you..seeing you treating me in a cold manner just hurts me deeply..really don't wish to lose another friend because i treasure you & our friendship ...

Though we can't watch fireworks together but thought of sharing with you this photo from my friend's photos because i find the fireworks nice taken..hoped that you like it..^^

Current Mood: numb

Headed to jp with friend yesterday and thereafter went drinking at playground nearby her house..bought two bottles of white wine and sat there for a few hours..不知道为什么虽然有点醉但脑海里还是反复有你的影子。。i really don't know what can i do to ease the pain other than drinking ..i wish you could hear me out..sorry if i have said anything wrong to you yesterday..i'm not trying to interfere your life but i just wish to know whether have you found another person that you are interested with..i know that i shouldnt ask this question but do you have to reply me in this manner?..it upsets me yet i can't say anything..

Went to work today though i was feeling kinda unwell..had some misunderstanding during work & i felt stressful being caught in between..was hoping that you text me but did not hear from you..appreciate your concern when you asked about me..i'm contented enough with small lil things ..

Current Mood: exhausted

I have decided to post something each day as a diary for you..went to kbox today with classmate and when on the day there, saw someone who looked kinda like you cux of the hairstyle you usually styled..tried asking you whether you can meet up today but you were not free..was upset about what you texted ..really wish that i can get to see you again..what i miss most about you is your smile, because it makes my day just to see your smile..don't wish to see us drifting apart from each other..can you try to understand how i feel?..all i need is just your understanding and concern..i don't wish to see things turn out in this way..

Current Mood: cold

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE~ HO-HO-HO!

Current Mood: chipper